ANGEL 

Angel

Fallen angel

You lost your wings to love

Emotion

False emotion

Destroyed your freedom from above

Trapped here, fallen angel

Trapped among the humans now

Surrounded by their suffering

More pain than you'd allow

He doesn't deserve you, angel

Your friends said but you wouldn't hear

And now your wings are broken

You'll never escape your fears

Angel

Fallen angel

Is love worth it in the end?

Emotion

True emotion

Can it let you fly again?

LETTING GO

I thought you were my friend

I thought I had your trust

It seems that's at an end

And all I have is dust

What did I do wrong?

Will you talk to me again?

It seems it's been so long

Since you acted like my friend

You just ignored me one day

You never told me why

You never even gave me a chance

A chance to say

Goodbye

MONSTER 

Once I thought I knew myself

Thought I knew my heart

But now I'm losing myself

I don't recognize this anger, this pain

This confusion is driving me insane

What's happening to me?

I'm becoming the person I swore I'd never be

Wondering what other people think

With their thoughts as black as ink

Jealousy, vanity, I can feel it overwhelming me

When I look in the mirror, what do you see?

TOGETHER

I can't breathe

As my glass heart shatters

Our glass hearts shatter

As we divide

Slowly divide, fade away from our lives

Why are you doing this to me?

Can we pretend

It's all right again?

But we fight again

Divide again

We all break in the end and die again

Will there ever be an end?

Together we live and laugh and fight

Together we die, too proud to unite

Together we break apart and fall

Together we feel nothing at all

FROZEN

Look at me 

Please 

Look at me again 

Like you used to 

Before you became so cold 

I can see you

Can see you're there

But I can't reach you

Can't break through this wall we share

I try to talk to you

But you never see I'm there

Your heart must have frozen

You must have gone blind

To throw me away after all this time

You broke my heart like a promise

You left me alone, walked away

Leaving me standing, frozen with the pain

Imprisoned in these memories

Do you miss me?

Do you even notice I'm gone?

I keep dreaming you'll come back

But dreaming only breaks my heart

Again and again you break my heart

Wearing me down, dragging me down

When you leave, you leave me

Alone and broken, and you don't see

I'm standing frozen

Please don't leave

UNTITLED 

I can't think anymore

Ever since you broke my heart

I'm writing with my blood

Confused, I imagine your call

But then I wake up and my hopes only fall

Crying myself to sleep

How could you do this to me?

I came out of my shadows for you

Thinking that your smile was true

Now I see your coldness was hidden too deep

For me to see, but I couldn't believe

You'd just turn your back on me

You bring back all these memories

And I don't know what to do

You're in my thoughts and I'm so lost

As you shatter everything I thought I knew

Trying to be someone I'm not to erase the past

I don't need you here to tell me I can't last

The world moves too fast around me

Suffocating me with its speed

I try so hard not to think of you

But you're the one I need

Do you know how you've hurt me?

You've forgotten what it's like to cry

Alone to my last breath

I'll always want to ask you why

EMILY

I hate what I'm feeling

My head keeps reeling

Around and around until I hit the ground

Because the world's turned away

No one to save the day

I wish you would have caught me when I fell

My life's falling apart and I don't know who to tell

Turning my world into a living hell

Yeah, I wish you would have caught me when I fell

My friends won't look me in the eye

It's all I can do not to cry

I say I'm okay

But no one knows I lie

I'm falling again

But you won't catch me in the end

There's no one I can count on

No one I can trust

Once I thought I had someone

But my hopes dissolved to dust

Here I'm nowhere

No one sees how much I hide, I've lied

Trying to keep myself alive

I keep my pain, my anger inside

Maybe somewhere someone cares

Maybe someone can help me break down these walls

But no one here will catch me when I fall

REFLECTIONS

Looking back

I know I had to fight

One last attempt to set things right

But nothing went as planned

And no one knows how sorry I am

I know you

Can't see I care

Think I betrayed you

Lost in the air

Watching you walk away

Watching you fade away

We pull together just to fall apart

Uncertain to the end

Are you still my friend?

I don't want to remember

But don't want to forget

Anything and everything

I know you're not listening

But you have to hear me out

Listen to me now

Maybe you just want to be alone

But I can't stand by as you turn to stone

Looking back as we fade into the air 

I can see that you don't care

CROSSFIRE 

Walking toward each other with fire in their eyes

Anger in their faces and accusation in their strides

Challenging each other

It's like playing back a tape

I look around but there's no escape

Before I can run they turn to me

Asking me what I see

I try to listen, try to help, try to stay alive

But after a while I find I can't deal with all these lies

All the accusations and mistrust

I can feel my soul beginning to rust

But I can't take sides, can't stay, can't hide

When I send out my sympathy

It steals all my energy

Paying me back with so much negativity

Caught in the crossfire

I'm getting so tired

Wanting to run and hide

From all these lies

Now when they fight they hurt me too

I've had enough, my soul's worn through

But nobody sees

And still they fight on

Battling away into the dawn

Never noticing the one broken soul

Listening to death out in the cold

ILLUSIONS

There you go

With that look I've begun to know

Don't look so disappointed in me

Don't look so surprised

I realize I've lied

To everyone I know

And even to myself

I built my world up for nothing

To watch it crumble as the illusions are turned away, burned away

All the illusions are falling away

Now you know what lies below

Now there's someone in the mirror

And I don't know who she is

I know there's no cure

For being so insecure

No one sees the real me

No one sees what I'm trying to be

No one bothers looking inside

No one sees I'm not trying to hide

All I want is to be unafraid

To take off the mask

Is that to much to ask?

HEARTBREAKER

I've been hurt so many times

I never knew if my heart was mine

When I met you

I thought you were true

The way you look at me, like you can see into my soul

Like you know everything I know

No

I thought I was over you

But I'm not / And still you

Taunt me haunt me want you to want me

Hold me close but never see me

Lose me use me seduce and confuse me

Deaf plea for mercy, I'm never free

You don't know what you do to me

Break my stride, lose my mind

Everything's so unreal

Please don't leave me

With you I might heal

Please set my heart free

SECRETS

Sometimes I wish I could know

The things she hid so far below

Under the surface, under the skin

Secrets that destroyed her from within

I saw her life crumbling to the ground

No way to fight as she dragged me down

I tried to fly without any wings

Tried to help, didn't know anything

My first mistake but not my last

Was thinking everything was in the past

Sometimes I think I should have asked

My first mistake but not my last

Her secrets resurfaced

Came back to hurt us

Like a knife to my heart

I watched her life fall apart

She tried to hide

Turned her face away

She wouldn't let me help her

I was helpless anyway

I watched by day and waited by night

But I never knew that nothing was right

Now I wonder / Am I the only one that sees

That something's brought her to her knees?

FLASHBACK 

Walk right past me once again

Eyes stare through me once me once again

Haunting me all through the day

The memory won't go away

Why are you so cold to me?

I remember what you used to be

The world sleeps but I lie awake

Remembering a time when my heart didn't ache

It hurts to think you've forgotten me

It hurts to think you no longer care

The two of us, just a memory

The pain eases further every day

But the memories will never truly fade

Do you even remember what we had?

Now you leave me so quickly, and it makes me so sad

I thought it would work but now I have to let you go

Am I destined to be alone?

I know you don't hear me

Can't see clearly

Don't come near me

Why won't you free me?

FORBIDDEN 

You

Never said goodbye

Never thought

I'd believe your lies

I can finally see

I'm nothing in your eyes

Why can't you just go away?

I never thought it would be this way

Stop pretending to care

I'll never let myself heal

Never let myself feel

Again

Love hurts too much

Trapped here

Trapped in my mistake

I can see I'm

Not worth your time

You left me

Lost and alone

Fear tearing at my bones

I've been learning what it takes

I have to raise the stakes

To keep myself alive

The fear, the pain

Is now a part of me

And no matter how I try

I can't set myself free

NEVER 

Everything seemed fine

Until I took a look at my life

Stepped back, took a look around

Brought my mind back to the ground

Discovered I'm trapped inside a web of lies

No one hears my pleading cries

All the shadows that surround me

Fill me up with emptiness

When this started, I can't guess

Echoing into nothingness

I was too blind to see

That there was no one there

No one to care

What rips apart my heart

I was too blind to see

That you'd walked away into the night

We never had a chance to set things right

Was it my fault? I don't understand

I tried not to monopolize

But you never realized

I was letting you run free

Never tying you to me

Was I broken by my own hand?

Leave me alone, I don't understand

Screaming, leave me alone

I don't understand

TRAPPED

More than ever before

Invisible bars surrounding me

I need to scream

No way to fly

I need to talk to you

Make sure you're all right

Trapped again

Screaming in my head

No, no, no

Trapped again, alone again

Nothing to do but scream again

Raging against myself, I'm losing control

It's all my fault

Crying in my head

Let me go

But she says no

Please let me go

Banging my head against my walls

She says no

Begging no more

I know I helped you fall

Trapped again, lost again, crying for release

I did this to you

I need to make peace

But I can't break through to you

There's no way to get free

SANCTUARY

On the run again

On my own again

Abandoned in the end

Picking up my broken dreams

Falling apart at the seams

Pushed aside

I can't hide

Facing my fears

I've run out of tears

The pain isn't worth it

I can't heal

I can't deal

I know I

Can't make you feel

Can't make you see I'm real

I've had enough of hiding

I'm going to go down fighting

The pain inside hurts too much

Crying out at every touch

I can't hide

There's nowhere to run

Nowhere I can go

I've never felt so alone

There's no sanctuary left for me

CAN'T YOU SEE

Why do you laugh when you expect me to cry?

You can't bring me down, no matter how you try

Can't you see

All my beauty is inside of me

My heart is true

I can break away from you

Can't you see

You can't hurt me

I don't care what you say

Your words mean nothing anyway

Can't you see

Nothing's going to stop me

I'm dancing through my life

Can't you see

You can't get to me

I'm not falling anymore

My soul has wings that let me soar

Can't you see

I'm flying free

You're never going to bring me to my knees

SILHOUETTE

I raise my head

The world is dead

Everyone's gone

Can I finally move on?

But I need you there

You faded into the air

And now

The world's crumbling around my ears

Exposing me to all my fears

And now I find

I'm losing my mind

No one understands

Why I live

Why I dream

Why I'm not alone

I'm not alone

The blinding light

Strikes everything white

Shadows all around

Try to drag me down

See the fake angels surrounding me

I see through their perfect net

Now my life's in silhouette

SHATTERED

I see you

Standing alone, on your own

I start to call to you

But you look right through me, do you even see

I'm on my own too

It feels like I'm being neglected, rejected

I've been lost and alone too long

Have I been wrong

About you, about us?

Do you really care?

The confusion is getting too hard to bear

I feel the pain of a broken heart

On the inside, it's like I'm being torn apart

Sometimes it feels like I'm falling and falling

And when I cry, no one hears me calling

Sometimes I think I hear other voices

They're trying to help, but there are too many choices

I don't know where to turn

As my mind starts to burn

Screaming in pain

I have everything to gain

Help me please

I fall to my knees

Let my spirit mend

Don't break my heart again

PARTING OF THE WAYS

It's almost time

For us to move on

It just won't be the same

When half my friends are gone

I don't know what to expect from each new day

I can't ask for help, only make my own way

So these are the best years of our lives

As I move on, it's like I'm blind

Leaving a piece of me behind

It's impossible not to look back

The good, the bad, and the crazy too

When we part, I know I'll miss you

The time we spent together means so much to me

You helped me discover who I am / And who I want to be

But time ticks on

We've reached a parting of the ways

It seemed this time would never end

Will we see each other again?

Looking back, I say a final goodbye

So these are the best years of our lives

I try not to let myself cry

But the tears flow through my mind

Even though you're not by my side

Somehow I'll survive

Somehow I will face tomorrow

The first day of the rest of my life

GONE

I never really thought about it until now

You left, I never cared why or how

You left, leaving pieces of my heart scattered

You left

I cried myself to sleep for days

Remembering your comforting ways

Your calm presence, always there

Then you were gone, into thin air

You left

I never really thought about it until now

I was the last one to see you that day

The last one to say a last goodbye

Everything's wrong since you've been gone

And I can only cry

I've been holding back the pain

What did I have to gain

To let my mind burn

As I tossed and turned?

This time of year rolls around

I'm waiting for you to call, for you to come back

But you never do

I miss you

LOSING CONTROL

I woke up one morning and everything had changed

At first I didn't know why everything felt so strange

Then I realized what was happening was my worst fear

The people around me were starting to disappear

One by one, they were fading away

Stealing my life

Sealing my fate

It's getting harder for me to stand tall

No matter how I try, I always fall

Drifting into the shadows cold and deep

Never to rest, never to sleep

Wondering if I was to blame

If I was, nothing could take away the shame

I've started to run away from myself

But now I try I find

That no matter how fast I run

I can't leave myself behind

NIGHTMARE

I'm lost in a dreamworld

Exploring the unknown sides of life

Chasing the setting sun

Chasing the healing light

Somehow I found

Someone to understand

Somehow I found

Safety in my stand

I should have known I was really alone

But I

Never realized I was living a lie

Never wondered why

Everything seemed too good to be true

I was living a dream, but I never knew

Nothing was as it seemed

All it takes

Is one mistake

Now I'm awake

To the fact that no one cares

Facing a reality cold and dark

These tears have already left their mark

Maybe I deserve this, maybe not

All I know is that I'm lost

In the dreams of everything I'll never have

As the sky around me darkens, they become too strong

And I can't hold them back

I can't find the strength to fight

Can't find the strength to bring back the light

CIRCLES

Doing nothing

But I need to do something

Anything

To get my mind off everything

I need to escape

Can I just walk away?

Run away

I've been through this

The things I want to say

Just run away

Walking in the rain

The things I could have said

Chasing each other around in my head

Round and round and round we go

Round and round I go again

Driving myself insane

Run away, just run away

It's not my problem, I hear her say

But I did this to you

I did this to you

The first link in the chain

I have to see this through

Because there's no way to erase the damage I've done

I can't stand seeing you like this

But there's no way to win

I did this to you

I have to see you through

Right back where I started

Round and round I go again

BEAUTIFUL DISASTER

Beautiful disaster

You passed me by again

Leaving heartbreak in your wake

How much more will I be able to take?

Lost in the shadows of shock / Save me

You're all I see

You're all I need

Beautiful disaster, you're lost again

One last time you leave me behind

One last time I cry

One last time you don't see

One last time you're blind to me

Trying to gather the pieces of my soul

You shattered me, scattered me

Together we're so cold

Beautiful disaster, trapped and free

The living bear the scars

Blind from crying / Chasing you as you fade

Looking back to see / Come back to me

How could I have saved you / Take me with you

I need you here with me

Beautiful disaster, it will never be okay

It's your final fall from grace

The final scars on your pretty face

Resurrected in a coffin

Too beautiful to be real

Too perfect to heal

Never to wake up again

Wake me up again

Save me / Beautiful disaster

It will never be okay

EMO

I can't breathe again, and again, and again

Through my tears, cry no tears

Why do you try?

All that happens is we fight, and fight, and fight

I'm holding it together but I can't hold on for long

Things are okay for now but soon the peace will be gone

Leave me alone

Life's turned into a screaming match again

You say you want the best for me, so leave me

Alone, alone, alone

Why can't you

I wish I'd never been alive

Too much pain and crying

Fighting but failing not to cry

There's so much I want to say to you

Beginning with "Go" and ending with "Away"

Go away, go away, go away

Turn up the music so I can't hear you crying

Crying myself to sleep again, and again, and again

Leave me alone

Why do you try?

Why must we cry?

All we do is fight

You just don't get it

But I suppose we're all to blame

What more can you take from me?

Will it always be the same?

Listening to you cry

I turn up the music and keep wondering why

I'M A FAKE

Sometimes I think I'm living a double life

There's the "me" people see and the "me" that always hides

Why I can't get away from this?

I can't get away from me

Too afraid to let anyone see

I can't get away from my guilt

Hiding behind the walls that I've built

You might think you know me

But I'm a fake

I'm a disappointment

It's all too much to take

Lying to hide

Hiding my lies

You think I'm real but I'm just a fake

I've hidden myself for so long

I’m left with a soul so dark the tears turn to blood

I'm a fake

You look at me but don't see me

I'm a fake

So tired of hiding, but I don't know how to break free

I'm a fake

You might think you know me

But I'm a fake

I'm just a fake

And it's all too much to take

IGNORANCE IS BLISS

So here I am

My heart a single solid scar

Trying so hard to stand

Did I really fall so far?

Waking up to face myself

Letting go to save myself

My tongue says I don't care

But look in my eyes and you'll see the lie

Letting go won't help me

Letting go doesn't mean I'm free

How can you trust me when I can't trust myself?

I'm screaming for help

But I know no one will save me

Although my heart hasn't stopped beating

After so long I've lost all feeling

Turning my soul into a single hollow scar

Who would believe I've fallen so far?

But maybe that's for the best

Maybe now I can finally rest

Lying here, alone with my excuses

I know it was time to let go

But I feel so useless

So here I am, alone again

After letting go again

Wondering if it'll all be okay in the end

How can I trust you when I can't trust myself?

I'm screaming for help

But I know no one will save me

BITTERSWEET

Will you remember me as you walk away

My dying roses in your hand

Taking the memories but leaving the pain

Just like I wanted, I’m alone again

Are we falling?

Bittersweet / Let the memories surround me

Buried deep / Let the pain wash over me

Don’t let go / Sometimes I wish I could go back to that time

But I know / We’re too caught up in the currents of our lives

Maybe things could be all right for a while

If once again I could see you really smile

Will you hold me one last time so I can feel your heartbeat again

Giving me a beat to run to as we keep racing toward the end

Are we dying?

Bittersweet / Let the memories surround me

Buried deep / Let the pain wash over me

Don’t let go / Sometimes I wish I could go back to that time

But I know / We’re too caught up in the currents of our lives

Hearts pounding, we’re drowning

In the haze of better days

The memories are too much, my mind aching at their touch

Why did we go our separate ways?

Bittersweet, the memories always come back in the end

For you I’d let you break my heart again

NUMB

How can I care when I have no feelings left?

No pieces of my heart remain

With only tatters of my soul left

It's getting even harder to see through the pain

Falling again, I feel nothing

Nothing at all

If you knew, would it change anything?

Anything at all

Please help me break my fall

What is it about you

That makes more rips in my heart

The pain in my soul

Wants to tear me apart

Hating my little broken wings

Why can't I save myself from anything?

I'm sick of being so weak

But I can't fly free

Fading and falling

Faint from calling

Crying out from my shadows so deep

Scars on my soul

Leaving me bitter and cold

Sometimes I wish I could just stay asleep

If you knew, would it change anything?

Anything at all

Falling again, I feel nothing

You feel nothing at all

LEFT BEHIND

You think it hurts when you leave me

Watch me to see if I cry

I think about it, realize I'm free

I don't mind being left behind

I've gotten stronger between you and now

Past the point when you could bring me down

Did you ever really look at me?

Can you see

This is what you left behind

You didn't care about me

I'm stronger than you, but you'll never see

I'm what you left behind

I trusted you

Cared about you

And now you're gone

But I've moved on

I've moved on

We were blind to each other

Lost to each other

It's as much my fault as yours

Even though you left me

I thought I could see

A spark of good in you

That died with my trust for you

COLD FIRE

Wake up / To a clouded sky

Come back / Stop drifting in the lies

Take me away / Will I have to say goodbye?

Once again you walk away / And I force myself not to cry

All I do is fail but still I have to try

As I walk in the rain, sharing tears with the sky

Losing strength, I wait for you to find me

Paralyzed, I wait for you to see me, save me

But instead you leave me

Will you believe me

Will you hear me when I say

I'm trying, dying

Can you hear me crying?

Rescue me / Will you be my escape?

Burn me alive / Or will you be my heartbreak?

Reaching my limit / How much pain can I take?

Fade away / As you lose me in your wake

Am I right to think you won't leave me hanging there?

Or am I a fool to think that you actually care?

Losing strength, I wait for you to find me

Paralyzed, I wait for you to see me, save me

But instead you leave me

Will you believe me

Will you hear me when I say

I'm trying, dying

Can you hear me crying?

Go away / So I can breathe

I need you here / But you'll never see

Who I am / You'll never free me

Who am I? / Lost in dreams

I'm too afraid to let me be me

Around you, but you never see I'm never free

Losing strength, I wait for you to find me

Paralyzed, I wait for you to see me, save me

But instead you leave me

Will you believe me

Will you hear me when I say

I'm trying, dying

Can you hear me crying?

So slow and stop my broken heart

Will you heal my bleeding scars?

Waking up to a clouded sky

I wonder if this is our goodbye

MISFIT DESTINY

Close your eyes and die to wake

Is this my destiny, my heart to break?

Contemplating suicide, but I don't want to die

Blinded by the pain of your light

Is this the dawn of a new day or the sunset of my life?

Love me, hate me for all that I am

Will you help me stand?

Stand again, stand alone

Questioning a heart I no longer seem to own

Push me away

Will you end my pain?

I don't want to remember again

Looking back, now I can see

You were never my destiny

I've lost my hope of moving on

But it's better if you're gone

Hating myself because of my past

Standing alone as I tear me down at last

Do you hate me too?

Still chained in the memories of you

Will you end my pain as you push me away?

Or will you torture me as I live another day?

Looking back, now I can see

You were never my destiny

I've lost my hope of moving on

But it's better if you're gone

I don't want to remember you again

Turned away until the end

Close my eyes and die to wake

Am I just another soul to take?

I can see you're not my destiny

Are you my death come alive?

So easy to bleed

So much harder to fight

Looking back, now I can see

You were never my destiny

I've lost my hope of moving on

But it's better if you're gone

Look back now, can you see

This was never our destiny

You've pushed me away for so long

I can see it's better if I'm gone

BLACK ROSES

I can see she’s holding back the words

Dying to tell you but scared that she’ll be heard

Scarred perfection, resurrection

Of feelings she swore she’d never mention

She feels so invisible to you

Afraid her thoughts are bleeding through

Drowning slowly, dying lonely

She wants you to save her but she’ll never let you see

She’s running scared in the absence of a kiss

Afraid to lose you, she loses herself instead

Won’t stop the pain until the pain is dead

Able to appreciate the beauty in everything but herself

She can’t see that you’re willing to help

She feels she’s living life on a dare

Can you see she cares?

She claims she has nothing to give

Even though you make her life beautiful, she doesn’t want to live

With love a curse, she’s going insane / Again, over and over again

Even if she can control the pain / The damage done, she’ll never mend

Nothing will ever be the same

Afraid to lose you, she loses herself instead

Won’t stop the pain until the pain is dead

Able to appreciate the beauty in everything but herself

She can’t see that you’re willing to help

Running out of time, nothing is fine, nothing’s okay anymore

She’s prettier in her eyes as she lies bleeding on the floor

Eyes closing, beyond hoping, will you find her, save her before

It’s too late, and her thoughts fade as she breathes your name once more

Afraid to lose you, she lost herself instead

Wouldn’t stop the pain until the pain lay dead

Able to appreciate the beauty in everything but herself

She couldn’t see you were willing to help

SECOND THOUGHTS

We didn’t want to share the pain

We chose to suffer divided

Together we had so much more to gain

Were we really so misguided?

Did I really have to let you go?

Now we’re caught vulnerable, we’re going under

Getting the feeling we’re spinning out of control

Look at us, we’re dying

We’re dying and I welcome the cold turning me numb

Turn me numb

Trapped inside my mind,

You’re in my dreams and now I find

I can’t break free, I fell behind

And there’s no way to escape

Barely surviving day to day

I try not to think, not to dream of you / But my mind won’t stay away

I know that this is dangerous because I’ve felt this way before

But I’m too weak to fight away these feelings anymore

Trapped inside my mind

You’re in my dreams and now I find

I can’t break free, I’m falling behind

And there’s no way to escape

You can’t cover the scars

Can’t mask the marks

Of rage and shame / This time

And now / The darkness tells the stories of our lives

Every scar has a story

Every story’s justified

A search for failed glory

Proved by the memory of lies

We fell behind, lost in our pain

Seeing our mistakes divided

Never thinking there was more to gain

We didn’t see we were misguided

MIRROR, MIRROR

Hey Hollywood

It’s time for a reality check

Time for a change

We know models die and photos lie

But why do we accept it without a fight?

Mirror, mirror on the wall

How long until the illusions fall?

Why do we refuse to keep it real?

It’s all in the name of sex appeal

Mirror, mirror, hurry up and clear

So we can see the danger buried here

Models dying and photos lying

Why do we accept this without fighting?

Hey Hollywood

Anorexia, bulimia, and even surgery

Why are your ideals the only way to be happy?

There’s no place for those of us who refuse to fall in line

Or have imperfections like scars and fat and natural hair and eyes

With models dying and photos lying

How long, how long until we start fighting?

Mirror, mirror on the wall

How do we resist the urge to risk it all?

Buffed-out boys and bone-thin girls

Still hide in the lie of a perfect world

Mirror, mirror, please give us help

So we can see the harm we’re doing to ourselves

Models dying and photos lying

How long, how long until we start fighting?

AWAKENING

Torn from dreams of you and me

Shattered back to reality

Dreams are dreams and never real

No matter how much I want to feel

The lie remains, sweet burning pain

Telling me I’m alive

Put the pressure on the bleeding

Stop my heart, my heart from feeling

Take my pain, my breath away

And let me break another day

The scars that separate you and me

Mock my dreams so obviously

Angels laugh and angels cry

Do I burn to live or burn to die?

Either way I’m losing ground

Imagining you when no one else is around

Dreaming again, am I dreaming I’m alive?

Put the pressure on the bleeding

Stop my heart, my heart from feeling

I’m dying to tell you, trying to say

The words, but I know you’ll just push me away

Burning now, drowning now, in heart’s blood staining scarlet now

Scars spreading further, spiraling down

Dragging angels down with me

Down to where my pulse won’t beat

Tell me again, will you tell me I’m alive?

Put the pressure on the bleeding

Stop my heart, my heart from feeling

Take my pain, my breath away

And let me feel another day

Don’t tell me, tell me I’m alive

Tell me I’m alive

FORGOTTEN

I’m holding my breath again

Ready to fall

Over the edge again

I’m waiting for the heartbreak you’ll bring me

There’s nothing I can do but dream

And I’m running out of time but all I can do is say

Let me hide / Let me die

In her shadow / I’m lost so far below

Whispers in your ear / You never hear but still you strike me down

I’m falling back and finding myself crying underground

Sometimes I really hate being able to feel

For loving you

I’m drowning again

And I’m struggling to breathe but all I can do is say

Here we go, here we go again

Let me hide / Let me die

In her shadow / I’m lost so far below

Let me hide / Let me die

In her shadow / I’m lost so far below

THINKING OF YOU

Remember when I thought the world abandoned me

And I thought you were the only one left for me

We were so much closer then

And I loved your danger and mystery

But I think it’s time we said goodbye

Hey suicide, I’ve been thinking of you so often tonight

It’s almost like it was before when I was so ready to die

But now we’re singing lyrics that don’t rhyme

Oh suicide, you’re longing for a lie

I can remember when I realized you weren’t the one for me

I didn’t need you as much as you wanted me

Winter’s still beautiful and the loneliness still there

And though I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forget you

I know I don’t need you to help me escape

Oh suicide, you’ve crossed my mind so many times tonight

But I think it’s time we said goodbye

Time we turned our backs on the light

Hey suicide, you’re longing for a lie

Hey suicide, I’ve been thinking of you so often tonight

It’s almost like it was before when I was so ready to die

But now we’re singing lyrics that don’t rhyme

Oh suicide, you’ve crossed my mind so many times tonight

But I think it’s time we said goodbye

Time we turned our backs on the light

Oh suicide, you’re longing for a lie

Oh suicide, you’re longing for a lie